A little treat for myself

It’s still crazy in my world, but I took somtime today to do “selfish” things.  Well….. Getting the van and accura’s oil change might not be the most selfish  thing, but I just haven’t had the time.  Phillip and I walked the Pickering town centre, and I got my hair cut.  Not a lot, just a trim, but I feel wonderful.  Then we went to ikea to start to get ideas for our kitchen Reno. Then we had lunch at Fairview mall. We shopped at home depot and then I went and got a manicure and pedicure.  Ohhh I hate when they scrub your feet, it tickles too much! But now it looks so pretty.  Phillip walked the dog, we made “leftover surprise” for dinner, and now I’m under a blankie with tv on! We still have lots to do for Joanne,and she’s not doing well.  My house and classroom is a mess, and we have rehearsal tomorrow but for tonight, I am not going to worry about anything but down time!!

Why does everything make me cry????

Seriously people, I should buy stock in kleenex!!!

and…. I know why I am crying….. still a lot of stress, and still overtired.  It seems as one thing is taken care of…3 more pressing issues start to take over.

and….I’m not helping myself either, as I sit at my desk NOT working on report cards…knowing later I will curse myself for not being a busy little bee.

But really… every commercial is making me cry these days.

Now the drunk driving “I lost my mom and dad”, and those poor abused animals are going to affect anyone!

But I still think I’m a step beyond.  These commercials should give you “Eye Crying”, where you get a little tear or two.  But I’ve gone right to “Heart Crying”, where the tears come second after the change in your chest–my breathing catches, and my heart skips a beat, and if I don’t think really hard about calming down, then the next thing I will do will be not a “lady-like” little sigh, but an ugly cry.  (and you know what that ugly cry sounds like)

Worse, all those moments  which are a “Level Down” from hurt kitty commercials– moments in life or on TV which bring a warm smile to your face, or an equally gentle sad feeling– those have been upgraded to “Eye Crying” status.  News that a student of mine is leaving, a kid helping a little JK, or any number of sweet commercials–  kids running in the sunlight sort of thing– brings tears to my eyes.  (Oh those weird/cute little kids in the “Happiness, Newfoundland” commercial– almost push me to real crying)

I can’t even re-read and edit my own blogs without tearing up!!!

Now that I think about it, maybe the universe (or at least the DVD player) knows how I am feeling, and gave me a “Technical Difficulty” yesterday.

I want to show my class The Lion King  because a) its great, b) Disney-hello, c) we are going to sing “I Just Can’t Wait to Be King” and they need some context, d) because they were born in 2003 and haven’t seen it. but the DVD player which just worked for another teacher before lunch, wouldn’t read the DVD.  Finally I gave up, after defending my gender’s ability to use a DVD player to an eight-year old!!!  ( Dante: Maybe you should get Mr. Harvey to help.  Me: Do you think he can push PLAY better than I can???)  Night at the Museum  played fine, and while it doesn’t have great songs, it still is funny and Dick Van Dyke is wonderful!  More I think about it– Lion King might have been too much!!!  The scene where Mufasa is laying there dead, and Simba is calling his name and nudging him— Well getting teary just thinking about it!!!

SO, for the foreseeable future there will be no more:

• reading Love You Forever or The Lighthouse  or From Far Away all by Robert Munsch
• Fly Away Home by Eve Bunting (not about geese– about a homeless girl and her father who live in an airport–do not read with out kleenex)
• When I am Old With You by Angela Johnson (this one made me sob just typing the title!!!  A beautiful little girl and her grandfather, and she is making plans of what they will do when they are old together– but of course they will never be old together– he will be gone– and now I’m full out crying!)
• No more Toy Story 2 (because of Jesse’s song “When She Loved Me”
• No more Toy Story 3– because of the last 25 minutes: furnace, and then Andy growing up and choosing to give away his toys.
• Not the beginning of UP, or most of the middle, or the end!  (Actually, I only want to hear the dog say “Hi There”)
• The movie Cars makes me cry on regular days, when Lightning stops and pushes King across the finish line so he can complete his last race.
• Armageddon is sad when Bruce Willis pushes the button and all the flashes of his and his daughter’s life come up.
• No more love song, no sad songs, no no no

That’s enough foolishness for one morning!!  Wipe your eyes, suck it up and face your day…. you stupid baby!

Closing time!

The condo is closed!  A whole tree’s worth of papers signed at the lawyers, 30 phone calls made and received, but it is done!  Wow what a busy experience!

It was very sad to do a final walk through the condo. So empty……..

Thanks to mom who dealt with the movers yesterday, so I didn’t need to take another day off work!

Still so much to do, but hopefully both Joanne and I can rest easier tonight knowing that this part is over!