Why does everything make me cry????

Seriously people, I should buy stock in kleenex!!!

and…. I know why I am crying….. still a lot of stress, and still overtired.  It seems as one thing is taken care of…3 more pressing issues start to take over.

and….I’m not helping myself either, as I sit at my desk NOT working on report cards…knowing later I will curse myself for not being a busy little bee.

But really… every commercial is making me cry these days.

Now the drunk driving “I lost my mom and dad”, and those poor abused animals are going to affect anyone!

But I still think I’m a step beyond.  These commercials should give you “Eye Crying”, where you get a little tear or two.  But I’ve gone right to “Heart Crying”, where the tears come second after the change in your chest–my breathing catches, and my heart skips a beat, and if I don’t think really hard about calming down, then the next thing I will do will be not a “lady-like” little sigh, but an ugly cry.  (and you know what that ugly cry sounds like)

Worse, all those moments  which are a “Level Down” from hurt kitty commercials– moments in life or on TV which bring a warm smile to your face, or an equally gentle sad feeling– those have been upgraded to “Eye Crying” status.  News that a student of mine is leaving, a kid helping a little JK, or any number of sweet commercials–  kids running in the sunlight sort of thing– brings tears to my eyes.  (Oh those weird/cute little kids in the “Happiness, Newfoundland” commercial– almost push me to real crying)

I can’t even re-read and edit my own blogs without tearing up!!!

Now that I think about it, maybe the universe (or at least the DVD player) knows how I am feeling, and gave me a “Technical Difficulty” yesterday.

I want to show my class The Lion King  because a) its great, b) Disney-hello, c) we are going to sing “I Just Can’t Wait to Be King” and they need some context, d) because they were born in 2003 and haven’t seen it. but the DVD player which just worked for another teacher before lunch, wouldn’t read the DVD.  Finally I gave up, after defending my gender’s ability to use a DVD player to an eight-year old!!!  ( Dante: Maybe you should get Mr. Harvey to help.  Me: Do you think he can push PLAY better than I can???)  Night at the Museum  played fine, and while it doesn’t have great songs, it still is funny and Dick Van Dyke is wonderful!  More I think about it– Lion King might have been too much!!!  The scene where Mufasa is laying there dead, and Simba is calling his name and nudging him— Well getting teary just thinking about it!!!

SO, for the foreseeable future there will be no more:

• reading Love You Forever or The Lighthouse  or From Far Away all by Robert Munsch
• Fly Away Home by Eve Bunting (not about geese– about a homeless girl and her father who live in an airport–do not read with out kleenex)
• When I am Old With You by Angela Johnson (this one made me sob just typing the title!!!  A beautiful little girl and her grandfather, and she is making plans of what they will do when they are old together– but of course they will never be old together– he will be gone– and now I’m full out crying!)
• No more Toy Story 2 (because of Jesse’s song “When She Loved Me”
• No more Toy Story 3– because of the last 25 minutes: furnace, and then Andy growing up and choosing to give away his toys.
• Not the beginning of UP, or most of the middle, or the end!  (Actually, I only want to hear the dog say “Hi There”)
• The movie Cars makes me cry on regular days, when Lightning stops and pushes King across the finish line so he can complete his last race.
• Armageddon is sad when Bruce Willis pushes the button and all the flashes of his and his daughter’s life come up.
• No more love song, no sad songs, no no no

That’s enough foolishness for one morning!!  Wipe your eyes, suck it up and face your day…. you stupid baby!

A fun evening!!!

I had such a nice time last night.  Phillip, Megan and I were going to watch movies.  I made my suggestions (which are always Ocean’s 11, Cars, or any Harry Potter) but we has come to an agreement on a “George Clooney” night– O Brother Where are Thou, and the Ocean’s 11.

Well, I know I have a book (dated 2003) that is just a book of “lists of movies”  Top grossing Ninja movie, top disaster movie, and top movies from a variety of actors.  We started reading these lists, (Like Tom Hank’s movies) and you can’t help laughing thinking about scenes from various movies, or talking about ones you haven’t seen. 

There was also lists of Best Picture, Best Director, Best Actor/Actress and Best Supporting Actor/Actress Oscar winners from every year from the 1930′s to 2002!  We had a hoot guessing the names of actors and films and talking and laughing!

What a great way to spend an evening engaged with other people rather than just watching TV again.    Can’t  wait to NOT watch movies again.  If you want to have this much fun, go on AFI (The American Film Institute’s) website–they have good lists, like Greatest hero and greatest Villian or most romantic movie.  You will have a great time laughing, crying and acting out your favourite scenes!!!

Random things that I like to do…

Y’know how you have comfort foods, or comfortable jeans.  I have some routines, books, movies that are like that too.  There are some things, that no matter what else, will always make me happy.  Plus in these hard economic times, its nice to have free or almost free things that will always put a smile on your face

• Going to Ikea– I love Ikea, I play house in their little model homes.  Everything about Ikea is fun.  The meatballs are yummy, and the Lingenberry Juice–yum.  I walk around saying the “Swedish” name for everything “TORK”  “ECTOR”  “MALM”  gotta love that MALM.  And no matter how much I say I’m not buying anything, somehow a basket, kitchen gadget or pillow always comes home with me.   (Note: I don’t  go to the Leslie St Ikea anymore– the parking garage scares me.  Seriously-have you been up on top of that thing? Its all slanty and almost going to collapse, and to be under it —yikes.  Now I will go to the Jane and the 407)   But a fun date is a trip to Ikea, its just hard to convince the peeps at home to take me.  (Hey Megan, wanna go to Ikea???)  Oh–personal message : when they have midnight madness at Ikea, and you think “How many people will really be at Ikea at 11:30 at night—THE ANSWER IS LOTS!!!!  Avoid this at all costs.  No cute stacking baskets are worth that madness.
• The carwash.  This has already been mentioned, but Its worth repeating.  I love going to the carwash.  I don’t like washing the car with a hose and bucket-yuck, but the soft cloth car wash.  Ohhhh spend the extra money and get the TRI COLOURED foam soap.  Woo hooo I love it.  (But if I owned a carwash I would buy little LED lights and rig them up so they looked like gremlin eyes.  Imagine that–soapy windows, you can’t really see, but you catch sight of little glowing eyes–Spooky).  For our anniversary one year, Phillip and I went to the carwash and then Ikea, it was a great day!!!
• I LOVE Harry Potter– I read the Harry Potter books continuously.  Really I mean CONSTANTLY.  Before bed every night, I read about a page or two.  I can’t read new books during the school year–I’m just too tired.  That’s why I read 3 or4 new books over Christmas Break or March Break, and even more during the summer.— But now its Harry Potter.  When I finish book 3, I read book 4 etc…. and when I am finished the entire canon, then I start again.  Since I started reading all seven in order, I have probably gone over the entire set 5 times by now.  I just can’t stop!!!
• I also love the Harry Potter movies.  (Don’t get me wrong–books are better than movies, and if you want to have a discussion about books vs movies I have some strong feelings.  But the movies are visually wonderful! The first one, wow!  How did they know what the Hogwarts Express looked like in my mind).  If I am working on something else and need some noise in the background, a Harry Potter movie is always a good choice.
• Other movies that I watch obsessively are Ocean’s 11, Clueless, Notting Hill, Twister, The Rock, Con Air, Armageddon, American President, Legally Blonde, and Outbreak (or in its alternate title MONKEYPOX)— It doesn’t matter how often I have seen these movies, I will always watch them again and again.  (What does this say about me???  I’m not sure)
• When I am at the grocery store, I always have to check the cakes and pick the birthday cake that I want.  It is probably not my birthday, but I always look. Hmmmmm Blue’s Clues or Spiderman…….. sometimes its a tough choice.  Princesses usually win.  Also purple flowers or balloons in icing.  (at least I don’t slap the roasts–anyone who would do that is really weird)
• I love to buy nailpolish.  I don’t wear a lot of nail polish, but I own a lot!!!  Nothing can pick up a grumpy mood like a $3 bottle of fun!!!